The Choices – Independence Automatica of Mind and Body

OVERVIEW OF THE IMAGE OF PERCEIVED CHOICE

Why do I feel bored in life? How many years do I have to put up with this? What can make things better?

Ugh! {You cry in perceived pain, turned out you enjoyed it}

The ugly yet satisfying truth lingering beneath a broken heart of pain and lust. A sword and shield that are laid down in a cupboard, forgotten and then later discovered and pawned off to contribute to your so-called retirement funds.

Integrity, lost through the childhood or adulthood depending on how desperate you actually are. Have you retained it through the years? Can you feel the honesty stripped away and now replaced with the art of bullshit? {bullshit = rhetoric}

“Oh no! I’ve reached 25 and I am an old woman and now I have no idea what to do because my delicate eye lashes, expensive Gucci or Prada handbags makes me poor. Mummy and daddy no longer give me £1000 a month spending money or have my boyfriend publicly shamed because he gave me pathetic bunch of lilies instead of 50 red roses at £200.”

“My anus needs bleaching!” Spoke by a man in a suit whilst driving his Ferrari to his office in which he sits for 8 hours doing less work than a nurse for £89,000 a year.

Then a footballer at £200,000 a month jumps in: “Hello I love playing with balls. It pays well.” The football disagrees.

Alas! Politician and local area MP for Surrey hops around on one foot whilst sticking his middle finger up at a picture of the Queen, all the while having his learned friends glorious shit thrown at him as part of his initiation into the party: Our mutual circle jerk club.

Wait, news headlines talk about a virus sweeping the globe causing the sniffles. Yet the East are obliged to send children to school in full nuclear suits. Don’t worry, you won’t hear them cry or complain. If they do, our automatic drones will charge through the streets chanting mindless propaganda restricting rights you never had to begin with. Children ushered into vans, where to?

I wrote zombie apocalypse stories, because that is my favourite genre. Now the world is becoming a zombie apocalypse. In those stories people still retain the right to treat their minds and bodies how they wish, providing they are alive and not a zombie. We live in a world though where choice is taken from us. We don’t see it until it is too late because of all the distractions. Are you distracted by media, internet, work, news, food or health?

CHOOSING AND BELIEVING ARE DIFFERENT THINGS

Health means many things. I suspect most people like to think that they are in good health and that is what they want: good health. That means making choices to support ones health. You might like to increase the amount of exercise you do, or eat a healthier diet. Do you really want those changes for yourself out of your own choosing, or have they been chosen for you? Diet and exercise are the two ingredients forced down our throats when it comes to reducing disease and illness and boosting wellbeing. Well I have news for you, it doesn’t work for a lot of people. They are told to keep at it, and that things will improve. No, if it doesn’t work then it won’t change no matter how long you keep at it. A personal experience:

‘A few years ago I ate vegetarian, ate 1 meal a day with a snack or two, and exercised moderately everyday for a few months. During that timeI dropped around 6 kg and was borderline underweight. I wasn’t eating anywhere near enough. Despite the weight loss, my body looked skeletal and I felt like my body was starving. My health actually deteriorated at well, causing me to get sick often. The funny thing is that I was not vegan, which meant I still had the benefits of certain animal products like eggs. I had some people tell me to eat more. I actually struggled to regain the weight even on a high calorie diet for several months. It took over a year not only to regain some weight, but to stabilise my health. I had discovered for the second time in my life that advice from so-called medical professionals and the government can be detrimental. I really was doing everything right, and actually was probably eating a good amount for my weight at the time.’

There are others with similar experiences, who wished they’d never started dieting and increased exercise because it has actually made things worse for them and some don’t think they will get back to normal. It can be dangerous! Take all of the advice from another person with salt, even what I am saying. People can and do follow healthy diets and exercise, I learned how to do it without the negative effects. I find that moderate exercise, especially exercise easy on the joints, like walking, biking and swimming and maybe some body exercise {pushup, situp, leg raise, planks etc.} at home to be the most beneficial.

https://www.express.co.uk/expressyourself/192600/Obsession-with-healthy-eating-ruined-my-life

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-381285/Exercise-ruined-life.html

When given a diagnoses by a doctor for example, we take that at face value. Now my experience with the health system is extensive and I know {sadly this is not bullshit} a lot more about my health than a doctor. I suspect you do too. Why? I live with my own flipping body and I know my mind and body better than an external person who cannot experience my life. You see, just because you have high blood pressure at an appointment that does not mean it is high all the time and definitely does not mean ‘medication’ immediately. Likewise, a scan which reveals some shading on your lung does not mean ‘antibiotics’ immediately. Nor does it mean cancer. You see you are so much better off without the health care system. So many ailments can be treated at home and without medication. Antibiotics are overused. From personal experience, don’t be afraid of leaving if you don’t feel comfortable or that you are being told dangerous information, such as needing treatment when you know you don’t. Over treating minor conditions is killing your body. Do not be forced to have medication for mental health problems either, even if you are convinced by a psychiatrist to take them. If you don’t want it, you don’t have to! Obviously if you need them and accept that and they help then great! But we live in over diagnosed and over prescribed antidepressant and anti-anxiety pill nation. The majority of people don’t need them.

Choosing what you need and believing what you are told are completely different things. Believing that a professional knows more than you can be detrimental. Use your underused initiative! How many ‘experts’ come onto TV {I don’t watch it anymore, haven’t done for years}, and start talking about the ‘scientific’ benefits of beauty products? Are you kidding me? HAHAHAHA COMPLETELY LAUGHABLE. You might as well get your anus bleached for all the scientific benefits. What about the dangerous trends of social media, like the ridiculous ice bucket challenge? Read my article on the dangers of social media here. Of course the stupidity was masked and pushed away as it was ‘for charity.’ Sure, how much money actually went to the cause? We live in a silent nation too afraid to speak out!

FEAR AND DESIRE ~ DRIVING US TO DELUSION

A critical driving force of the human race. So, you don’t choose, things are chosen for you, using the magic of advertising and social media and news. Your views are not your own and neither is your home or your car or even your pet dog. Do you know why? Do you care, or are you content to let the banks take control of your property at any minute? A private entity that controls public resources, like controlling the government. Big companies, pharmaceutical and other, controlling and dictating what the government makes into legislation and what it feeds us. Then the circle of bullshit – remember rhetoric = bullshit and vice versa – is initiated and continues until the public accept it, which does not take long, and then they feed the information themselves until it evolves to the point that the majority of things said at the beginning are forgotten and we don’t really understand it. The message or information source is usually lost and becomes part of things like ‘social norms’ {another joke}. People are then convinced that the lie is truth and sometimes the lie can drive them to believe that they have a right to something, or a desire to do something. Great examples are black lives matter – hiding beneath the surface until it garnered the media attention and decided that black people have the right to go around stealing, beating and attacking police and white people – because they are in the minority. What about feminism? Turned violent against men because certain women think that men can’t stop thinking about them or sex – grow up.

You usually outward when you cannot look inward. You spend money and shop and distract yourself with all these fantastic material things because of adverts and what other people told you. You are scared of who you really are, what is going to happen to you and what the world thinks of you. I have some news, this is fear. You fear not appearing proper if you don’t join the argument to get the vaccines, or the argument to support the popular view, which usually does not have any logic, and any use of logic will cause the other people to shout. They don’t shout answers or arguments, they usually shout because you make more sense then they will. They cannot accept that they are wrong. You don’t need others to tell you what you desire either. Do you really desire expensive perfume and clothes? Do you really desire to ‘fit in’ or to look like you aren’t poor or that you don’t belong to a certain group? This innate and delusional belief system is making people physically and mentally unwell. What about the idea that you can look and dress how you want? Well, it has been blown out of proportion.

People nowadays are all about being different and have created this culture of being different, which is itself so common that to be a part of it is more of a statement of ‘I am insecure and need attention’ but if you take that attention away, they gather in groups to stand out again and make themselves heard. Take a look at trans rights, forcing the idea that children should be allowed to pick a ‘gender.’ Let me clear something up, you are born a boy or a girl.

I recently asked what I perceived to be a girl {because her picture looked like one, and had a girl name} about her gender, do you know what she said when I asked is she was a woman? ‘I am non-binary.’ It also transpired that this ‘being’ was polyamorous. I had to look up what non-binary was. Why on earth could I not get a straight answer? You see, the lies and the fear has spread so far now and is so engrained that women are afraid to say they are women. She was clearly a female. Two genders okay, male or female. How does a woman have babies? People have now got to the point they are afraid of saying words like ‘vagina’ and ‘penis’ and would rather play mind games letting us figure out things like non-binary meanings. I am sorry to say this, but you cannot avoid your gender by simply stating non-binary. It is stupid to believe you can. This is nothing but delusion, the result of fear and desire. Afraid of the truth, desiring to be different.

Afraid of the truth, desiring to be different.

Wizard

CONCLUSION

Independence of mind and body are really important to having an improve life. But, reality dictates what we should believe and desire and teaches us things that are not true. Do they really want to eat fast food, to diet and exercise, to pay mortgages and drive expensive cars and go out drinking and socialising and being a part of that cult of personality? Does the man really want to be a woman and vice versa? Do your children want education or are they trauma bonded into a system to work… sorry, to slave away for the rest of their lives in the hope the master may throw a bone to them?

The lies that the government have told us, the belief system about an afterlife? Do you really want to waste your lives slaving away, being a part of this instead of doing what matters? Eat healthy, work a good job {rather than doing your passion} and make sure to not break the laws or hurt others and definitely do not question us. If you want the truth get initiated into the disgusting world of the occult. Sell your soul so you can feel shame and guilt all your lives because you think you have sacred knowledge. Live in delusion that you are better or that you are somehow different. You have no choice and you are not meant to cry and ask big questions. You are not supposed to think outside the ‘social norm and will be persecuted if you do. Love and hate are the same things because we love your slavery and hate you at the same time. We get off in secret masked sex parties, raping, torturing and beating women as sex slaves whilst convincing the public their money is being put to good use. We take drugs day and night because we know that none of it means anything. We don’t care about you, so shut up and eat your shit food.

Now do you get it?

Heartache and How to Let Go

When you have heartache or issues of the heart, whether that emotional or spiritual, you will know or you will not know.

How can you tell?

Are you struggling to let go of an emotionally charged situation? Are you grieving for a loved one? Are you recovering from the break up in your relationship? Are you lacking self love or care?

A grief or emotional strain can cause issues in the body which might not lead you to believe the issue is one of the heart, Trust me. Sinus issues, headaches, crying, feeling guilty, grieving and struggling to forget hurt and love from a previous relationship are all signs that the heart is struggling.

Of course, physical ailments can cause issues too. You may be working through the issues without realising. Change comes from awareness. Awareness comes from acceptance. Accept that you are struggling, try to heal the heart and see if it helps.

So how can you do that? Well, firstly, you need self love. You need to get to grips with your emotions, and really make an effort to work with them to overcome any challenges that are popping up. If you cry a lot over something, consider working through it rather than leaving it until later. Have something to say to someone who broke your heart or caused heartache or doubt? Go and say it. Say it to yourself, say it to the world. Make sure you are holding yourself and remember, that you cannot hurt yourself unless you choose to. By ignoring emotional pain, you are harming your own psyche and spiritual body.

Other external sources to help the issues of the heart include the use of rose quartz.(https://www.healthline.com/health/healing-with-rose-quartz#:~:text=The%20rose%20quartz%20is%20also%20believed%20to%20have,when%20worn%20close%20to%20the%20heart%2C%E2%80%9D%20Birch%20claims.)

I recently bought a rose quartz egg, and I have felt the benefit already. I also bought some rose oil today, which would have a similar effect for issues of the heart.

An excellent article on essential oils which boost libido and help issues of the heart can be found @ (https://www.lovingessentialoils.com/blogs/essential-oil-tips/aphrodisiac-essential-oils) Although it talks about libido don’t let that put you off. What it is getting at is more than that. Increasing your libido can also assist the heart to heal, and to help overcome depression. It also talks about women being attracted to jasmine oils, I am a male and I find jasmine one of my favourites, so don’t let any sort of perception of who uses it put you off. Let your instincts guide you in choosing an oil. Rose is so potent for love, self love, just a tip, but get some.

The point is that you need to love yourself, work with yourself in a safe environment and don’t be afraid to work through the issues, however that may be. Once you free issues of your heart, emotional or whatever else, you will immediately feel the benefit.

It is not a short journey, but it will help you. Issues aren’t limited to heartache but can include anger about past relationships or current, fear, anxiety and others.

Good luck, and may God bless your heart.

This article provides some good insight.

What did I buy on my walk to the shops?

What did I buy on my walk to the shops?

It was throwing it down with hail, as I sat at my desk reading emails, and fondly gazing into the thick stones. But, they lasted a mere few minutes. Enough time to prompt me to go out. It was fairly busy considering the miserable weather.

Cafes were open today as well and bustling with non-mask wearing peeps. I have black joggers, blue trainers, a dark black dragon shirt, a black hoodie and black cap. So, it must be me when I say I don’t like to stand out…

I entered town where more people were bustling and making ways to shops and buying the usual non-essentials, because let’s face it we need more junk in the world. My sole aim? To buy some more essential oils from a particular health and wellness store, which supplies supplements, specialised foods, oils, some magazines and lots of protein for body builders!

Purchases made at the shop: activated charcoal tablets, Tisserand rosemary organic essential oil, Tisserand organic peppermin oil and Tisserand organic lemon oil. This is to supplement the 3 oils I bought yesterday from the pharmacy (lavender, eucalyptus and orange).

Rosemary essential oil.
Image result for tisserand peppermint
Peppermint essential oil.
Lemon essential oil.

What is essential about these oils? Health effects or benefits? Yes! Indeed these oils, any type of essential oil is the plant extract taken from source and distilled and pressed down until it is liquid, 100% pure oil. This has numerous health benefits. For example a favourite of mine, Frankincense – also given to baby Jesus as a gift – has remarkable benefits for brain health, and overall physical and spiritual wellbeing, being able to give us that insight and second spiritual sight we need in times of prayer.

I chose rosemary, lemon and peppermint because I had read that they boost kidney health, and I was looking for a way to detox them, that is why I also bough the activated charcoal too. The kidneys are the single most important organs in the body to eliminate and eradicate toxins, that is why we need to keep them well fed, extremely well oiled (good hydration) and through exercise and eating right. Don’t overburden an already burdened system by eating unhealthily or by sitting around waiting for that circulation to improve! Give your kidneys the love and care they desire and need in order for them to function optimally. They control blood pressure, growth, the water system, electrolyte levels, protein levels, and more!

Activated charcoal I bought.

So with that bought, I moved toward the exit of the shopping centre, which was reminiscent of the film Dawn of the Dead, although some of the shoppers were not as ravenous. I travelled along to a book, magazine store which also supplies stationary (I am not mentioning store names but you may have already figured that out!).

New scientist Essential guide No.6 – Evolution – Darwin’s theory of natural selection and what it means for life.

I was searching for a decent movie magazine, but sadly I could not see any that appealed to me. I usually get Total Film or Empire. Today I wanted to appear slightly intelligent so I decided to wander over to the magazines about astronomy, nature, science and rocket stuff…I stumbled upon this magazine – picture above. I immediately was drawn to this as – a) I don’t actually like the Darwin’s theory of evolution and b) It was a subtle dark green that reminded me of the jungle – no doubt that is a deliberate imprint on the readers mind. I have yet to read any, but it looks well written and well presented. I wanted to try and expand my mind and stretch out of my comfort zone.

One of the coolest and newest things that caught my eye was a can, yes a can, of sparkling water! It has a resealable lid and is 500ml.

Canned at source from the Austrian alps!

It matched the black I had on, but I slipped it into my little backpack before desperately racing home to try it. Cool and easy to use with minimum on the can in terms of advert. It literally says – sparkling spring water, can’o water, don’t bottle it. On the back it states the instructions to open and that cans are infinitely recyclable. I agree. I also have a preference for can or glass over plastic. Yes the lid is plastic but comes to good use. As mentioned it is resealable and that means you could shake it after opening and it would not spill out – “I tried it.” It has a rich taste and does not overwhelm your sense with bubbles. Some products like Pellegrino are way too fizzy but this can hit the spot. Of course, there is the concern about aluminium being sapped into the source but try and forget that!

I hope you enjoyed reading about some of the things I bought today. I hope to talk some more about what I do on days out. When I can, I will be taking you all virtually to various locations across England. London will no doubt be a highlight when I get the chance to go there.

For now stay safe and enjoy life! xox

Somatica

I want to be alone

It's not gonna change who you are

It won't guarantee you'll get far

Because when the night comes

And angels sing and dance

I won't want to see you alone.


"Hebrews 11:6 - And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.

Ephesians 2:8-9 - For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

1 John 5:4- For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith."



You are full of good

Full of love

Beneath God

And under that sky

There is hope

Blossoms

Bees

In the cradle

Grown until death.

It’s Eternal

You're a virus,
you take your time to spend your life replicating in another,
living cells of another,
any life form,
forever and ever, to the end.

Came from darkness,
a thought,
a mere speck of dust,
some random hole a million miles away,
now here,
to stay,
what am I referring to?

You think you know,
it's so much to understand,
the truth is easier than the lies,
why are you running backwards,
it takes an eight ball to win,
a bullseye,
not a blinded chicken,
a shambling corpse!
A human.

What is this virus?

Together

No matter how small you get I'll find you,
no matter where you hide, I'll reveal you,
where I see a light your life will be light,
merging currents transcending the seas,
pulling me all the way...to thee,
a harsher punishment is awaiting you both,
charged with love and seeking the truth,
there is a narrow passage, 
through which no key can pass,
until you brace yourselves,
for the eternal blast. 

Addendum

Floating into a dark tunnel,
light fading, sparking in my peripheral,
emphasis on the strange,
give me a moment to write another masterpiece,
latter day get away,
your spiral confusement,
befuddled euphoria,
swooping down on the night,
trying to take me without a fight.

A dead end,
the road was short,
abruptly stopped,
you never really knew me to begin with,
melancholic haunting texture,
fickle shape matter scattered,
space born wizards and black hole angels,
open the gates, the flood gates,
drown out the sorrows of the damned,
forgo all the pain we inflicted unto you,
oh, thou heavenly body.

Caught in the waters of time,
didn't take enough...to look inside,
brush against me I swipe it away,
fate played out how you expected it to,
a day away from the hurting pain,
suddenly at a loss,
so strong and now burned and lost,
ashes once risen have now all gone.

Electromagnetic pulse,
surging current across the...universe,
halted and afraid,
stronger than you have ever been,
freezing microbes and dastardly virus,
latch onto our metal pious...

Rising sun,
tell us what we have done,
help us understand the fun,
that you have given us.

Tell us what we have done,
maybe so that we addendum,
add on and mystify,
lost and glorious in the dark sky,
feeling all too high,
until you hit that ceiling,
oh...why.

Wrote...
a small piece...
of a puzzle...
my mind adrift...
losing faythe.

Maybe Another Day

Maybe you could strike a chord?
Maybe you could kick a stone?

How you live and how you die,
not exactly how you live inside?
Breath of life,
angels delight.

Thunder strike,
rain tonight,
nowhere near my might,
thunder strikes,
rain tonight.

Drip of blood, 
love and lust,
you've become,
endangered and undone.

Maybe another day,
a day so so far away,
one we could say,
allowed us to see the way,
through our darkness,
your darkness in my eyes,
all those wasted years,
your thin blood lines,
lies behind my mind...

Sunlight beaming very bright,
sunrise in the distance,
is coming,
inside out finding your way out,
learning what it's all about,
in the house. 

Maybe you could turn the music up?
Maybe you could open your heart?

Maybe, another day.